3 steps forward

thank you for thr comments, Mary and Guido. I truly appreciate them.
Last weekend things were really  dark for me. So i made an impulsive decision and Sacanna and i took off to Gatlinburg for two days of mother daughter time. And my older daughter cane to join us after she got off work. So i have made a promise to myself to get out more. I work here, live here, nit ever getting out cant be good for me.  It was very goid for me to have done this. When i got home i yook a ling and wonderful nap.

I heard from the ex boyfriend  he is needing help, of course. I was kind, but won't be helping him. It was just mire if his sane old song and dance. I am oroud to say I didn't feel anything for him.

I was kind because i saw ehat drugs abd alcohol have done yo his body. How broken he is.  He can't get to me anymore. I may still have healing to do from that relationship but he won't be able to inflict any more harm to me. 

Sometimes

sometimes i am the lonliest person in the world.  The sadness is so consuming I can't even put it into words. And all i want, more than anything, is for someone to say, "come here." And take me in their arms and just hold me while i cry.  No other words. Just that.